From – We Believe In Light .org
I’m not sure which exact moment was responsible for lifting my heart up to IMAGINE a freer me. But…it is certainly CLEAR that each and every moment of spiritual awakening this year has brought me to THIS precipice!!
I spent yesterday morning giddily spiraling from this new sense of EMPOWERMENT that I have stepped into…and then receding back into the comfort of anonymity and insignificance yesterday evening.
Yes!! You heard me correctly. In one bright beautiful day…I was able to fully and genuinely identify with two opposite extremes of one powerful spectrum of possibility. Both stances of genuine being impacted my body, mind, and spirit deeply. In the morning…I was able to sense MY DREAMS COMING TRUE ~ my spirit taking flight ~ and every imaginable opportunity becoming manifest!! Life seemed effortless and wondrous!! And in the evening…I sensed my spirit looking back for something I’ve missed ~ my body feeling the physical weight of responsibility ~ and only the clouds of uncertainty surrounding me in all directions.
That’s my candid truth. That is exactly what I felt.
BUT…once I recognized how quickly my energies had shifted…I stood in AWARENESS and asked to understand the shift. And in answer to this request…I recalled a special moment with my son just a few weeks ago.
My beautiful son stepped into the brave new world of middle school about four weeks ago. I was so excited for the new challenging experience he would have. And although I had concerns about supporting his accelerated academic challenges…I never felt anything but genuine excitement for his new adventure.
Then…suddenly and without warning…on the late evening before school began…I felt this intense desire to just hold him close!! Beyond my natural desire to cuddle and love him…I felt the need to hold onto him. That is certainly not my norm. It confused me…so i let it go. But the next morning…i clearly saw the bigger picture and was able to understand.
Once he proudly and bravely left the house with a wide-eyed wondrous look firmly in place…I grabbed Flash (our dog) to take a nonchalant walk near the bus stop. (((Smile))) As I turned the corner where his bus stop came into view…I intuitively knew that I needed to give him the freedom to be himself. So i shifted directions…and began to quickly walk away. But spirit stopped me…and clearly told me “Look Back!! For today your beautiful son walks through a gate of initiation…and when he returns home today…he will be forever changed!!”
It was absolutely TRUE!!! He had changed through and through!! And although I recognized the beauty and power of transforming ourselves into greater beings of light….I TREASURED THE GIFT of TIME i’d been granted the evening before. I may not have recognized that it was the last time that i’d hold my baby tight…but my spirit knew the greater truth.
And I can clearly see…that I’m in a similar situation once again. Only this time…the innocent child stepping into the gate of initiation is ME!!
All year my prayers have been to help me believe in myself ~ remind me of my greater truth ~ and align my physical energies with the divine light I am!! And my experiences have certainly supported these prayers. I have seen myself in greater LIGHT than I ever have…and the limitations I’ve once placed upon myself are not only lifting…they are simply NON-existent!!
How beautiful is that??
I’m finally seeing, accepting, and trusting the LIGHT that I AM ~ not the Light i wish to be!! Ooohhhhhh…that’s powerful!! (((Smile)))
And I can SEE ~ that I have truly and fully changed who I once was. My sense of expectation is gone, gone, gone, gone, gone!! It has been replaced by my elevated sense of knowing!!!
I now know that I AM LOVE ~ I AM LOVED ~ I AM JOY ~ I AM CREATION ~ I AM PERFECT ~ I AM BLESSED!!! Any and allllllllllllll experiences I wish to embrace are MINE to welcome, create, and manifest!! ♥ I AM FREE, Free, FREE, Free, FREE TO BE ME!!!
Woohooooooo!! How blessed I am!!
And so…would you like to know what I learned about that beautiful shadowed aspect of self I sensed last night?? She was REAL!! She was GENUINE!! She is PERFECT!! But she no longer represents my greatest truth!! When I needed to feel insignificant and unseen…she helped me to hide most beautifully.
But my warrior self is now AWAKENED and FREE!!! I choose to hide no more!! ”I” as I AM ~ is all i wish to be!!
No judgement ~ No expectation ~ Just TRUST in the ever-changing and expanding flow of my sacred divinity!!!
I AM ~ FREE TO BE ME!!
And I pray that each of you see the same pure beauty in your precious journey!!
The precipice is real!! We will always have the choice to BE FREE ~ or be defined by a limited aspect of ourselves. So i pray…that I always choose the brilliance that is most naturally ME!!
I Love You All!!
In Blessings and JOY,
From – We Believe In Light .org