What’s showing up now is a merging of lifetimes, a merging of me.
It is 2018. I am a Caucasian female living in the Midwest of the United States of America. I am/have been a mother, sister, daughter, writer, educator, Pleiadian Star seed, blogger, friend, neighbor, school administrator, probation officer, computer technician, teacher, skydiver, land owner, telepath, wife, ex-wife, aunt…; you get the picture.
The reason for sharing this laundry list of identities is because recently there is a new one – other me’s I have seen, with other me’s that I am. Not from this life, the one as Sophia, but from another. It’s getting tricky to navigate.
This other aspect of me knows the same people and is even related to the same people – only they are not exactly the same; they look different, with different names, genders and relationships to me.
Without naming names let’s see if you can grasp the story. I am living out one relationship now with two different women. I’ve lived pretty much the same scenario with the same two beings in another “time”. I was male then, and a boy.
I’ll label them “past” and “now”, although clearly it’s happening simultaneously. I wonder if, and this just occurred to me as I pen this post, we can alter what has happened in our “past” interaction by changing our actions in this current one? I suspect this may be true. I’ll share why later on.
In the “past”, my interaction with these two women resulted in immediate and deliberate death for one of us, gradual death by starvation for another of us, and absolute dominance by the third of us.
In the “now” scenario, the stakes are not as dramatic, yet there is a contest of wills going on. Two of the women are sort of battling it out for a sense of control and specialness, while the third, with the authority by position this time to assert complete control – is not doing so. She is allowing the same story to play out. It ended badly for her before, and she was unable to alter that ending then. She is displaying confusion and uncertainty.
The reason for sharing is because I, as one of the beings in the drama, recognize both lifetimes and all three personalities. I know how this played out before.
It is an absolute challenge NOT to allow my action “now” to be colored by knowing what I know from the “past”. I’m not sure just who I am dealing with, if that makes sense. I don’t have a clear answer here, yet I bring it up because perhaps I am not the only one seeing this sort of thing? It’s wild. Like watching and living history.
Here’s another aspect to this that I promised I’d share. This has happened to me before.
Then, both of us knew and remembered the “past” lifetime and how it ended. It was within the context of a romantic relationship both times. It ended extremely badly for both of us in the “past”. Yet with awareness, we were able to heal that relationship and this one with intent and simultaneous action. It was beautiful, powerful and we’ll remain forever changed because of it.
In the first scenario described here, the other two women are unaware consciously of what we are repeating today. I wonder if it’s possible for me to alter our collaborative history by responding differently than I am right now. This deserves more thought.
I’ll share any insights here as this plays out. I can’t guarantee I’ll have many, yet by writing about it we can all consider the consequences of our responses right now. It is a transformative time.
Our multi-dimensional selves are merging with our 2018 ego! Pretty cool.
This is a remarkable ride! So glad you’ve joined me here.