Digging Deep, Facing Discomfort
Transcript: Now, before we get started this evening, tonight our main discussion is dedicated to our community as a Sanity Saver. I hope that you come back to this talk as a resource when you’re feeling triggered or overwhelmed by life circumstances. I would like to say from my heart that this month what is happening in the planetary field has had very intense results on the mental and emotional body – the minds and emotions of many people. One of the main messages in our community is to work on getting discipline over the thoughts that trigger the pain body, thoughts that are divisive and judgmental so that these intense times of transformation on the Earth would become much easier for you to process. I know that many people now are struggling with many complicated and difficult issues in their life, and for this struggle I have so much compassion and unconditional love. I do know how painful that this can be.
The topic of the most importance right now is how to get a handle on effectively dealing with and facing complicated issues and painful conflicts in your own life in the most effective and graceful way. These timelines bring up a lot of pain body issues that are being projected onto other people and things around us when we don’t understand what’s happening. We cannot run away from conflict. We cannot run away from our discomfort and pain and think we can escape it. The pattern of pain and discomfort you feel is existing inside of you. Really sit with that and don’t let that scare you. There is great power in realizing that. Know that you have the power to change that, to remove and clear that particular pain so that you never have to feel it the same way again.
Now, what are you going to do about that? Are you going to persist in these old patterns? Do you need to project that pain and discomfort onto other people in order to feel better? Did you know that you can feel the pain, but it does not have to impact how you feel about yourself?
You can maintain self-love, self-acceptance and self-esteem, even when undergoing painful shifts and major life challenges. You never have to feel bad about yourself. You never have to feel bad about others, even for 30 seconds. You could choose to feel total compassion instead. You could shift that in an instant if you wanted to, right now. A new motto when feeling bad – feel compassion instead. It is time to get that pain body under control and cleaned up. It’s all up to you. Now, this month we talk about historical timeline trigger events.
Many of these trigger events are triggering the pain body. We have an increased opportunity to break through our amnesiac barriers and the memory wiping, to regain more personal knowledge that connects us with the truth of our own experience at individual, collective and even Galactic levels. As we’re learning the truth is not always pretty, yet it still is the truth. Our spiritual identity exists beyond these energy reversals and syphoning machinery that generates these false, artificial timelines, all this negative ego and pain body debris. As a natural part of spiritual ascension we are intersecting with an opening where the true historical record and our authentic self can be much more easily recovered.
Our higher consciousness body may be surfacing memories internally that need to be felt, that need to be witnessed and aspects that need to be reintegrated. The opportunity during this time is to become freed from the impacts of these lower matrices in the 3rd dimension, as well as the dimensional blending experiments of the negative aliens, and to exist above these artificial grids of this timeline network that broadcasts the main negative ego and pain body programs. To support this process we may need to comprehend some of the impacts of the historical timeline trigger events that are showing up in the subconscious areas of our body to help us to recover our memories and return any parts of ourselves that we can recollect during this time.
This process may feel pleasant or unpleasant at times. To become the most authentic person you have to face and deal with the truth as it is. Not the reality you wish it was but the reality that shows up as it is right now, and the ability to see it truthfully will free you from the pain of it. It frees you from creating any more of that same painful pattern from the past by bringing that into your future timeline.
So what does recovering our memories actually look like? What is the process?
I think many of you already know this because you’re undergoing it right now. Our body will start to remember memories. Maybe those memories will be emotional impressions that could also be negative emotions in the pain body. As this deeply buried content of memories and historical records surfaces that had been previously buried in our subconscious, this is happening in order to transmute negativity and to clear out the dark energy of the shadow, to clear out pain body blockages. As a result right now many people are feeling a great trauma or anxiety, a discomfort that is sourcing from the memories trying to surface from the subconscious into the conscious mind awareness by breaking through the amnesiac barriers, which we also call the Wall of Separation inside the compartments of the mind.
In order to bring the memory into the surface witness of the conscious mind (now, remember the memory is going to be associated with a particular thought form or generally an emotion of some sort – generally in this context with the pain body it can be a negative or painful emotion that is associated with this memory) – for the memory to surface there’s got to be a link connecting the three layers between the subconscious, the instinctual layer and the conscious mind itself. If these layers are disconnected, if they’re not communicating well with each other, the amnesiac barrier, the wall of separation, hides the painful content from the surface mind awareness but the person will still be experiencing negative feelings or feeling emotionally triggered by something buried in their subconscious that bothers them. This time is like digging in the dirt. We’ve got to find the places inside us that we have got hurt.
Some people do not want to dig deep in the dirt but it is the only way you will get effective and permanent healing of the pain body. In order to not feel emotionally triggered by situations in our life, we have to get down past the amnesiac barriers and find out what hurt us and what makes us feel triggered emotionally. Maybe when we feel insecure by all the unknowns that are showing up in our life, we can feel that there is so much change ahead and this change may be felt as scary. It may trigger us to be overly defensive and even paranoid. People that are emotionally volatile and have a tendency to project their issues or blame other people for their emotional volatility, have a problem with trauma and hurt feelings that are recorded in their subconscious mind and the subconscious activates that in the instinctual mind and the result of that is the pain body. If we cannot control our pain body we will not feel safe with others. It will be hard for us to have the quality also of being a safe person.
When our pain body is out of control actually no-one can feel safe because the pain takes over the person’s perception. Our goal is to heal the pain body and stop emotional triggers, which will bring the experience of safety within ourselves so that we can learn how to be safe with others. The only way we can heal is to feel, and see, and express, what kind of pain or trauma has happened to us, and be willing to have the courage to find it, to track it, to surface it and be willing to clear and resolve it, so it will stop triggering us by the way that we perceive things in our world. Naturally, to heal trauma a person has to feel safe in their environment to do so. And that is another reason we work so hard to create a safe and non-judgemental space in our community container. When a person suffers a great emotional trauma impact, and this happens at any age but most commonly there is so much childhood trauma that their mind will generate an amnesiac barrier to push this memory beneath the surface awareness so that they forget that trauma in the conscious awareness.
The issue with this is that the trauma is suppressed and denied and thus the trauma or pain does not go away. It just festers underneath the surface of the conscious mind. When this trauma record is buried in the subconscious layer behind the amnesiac barrier it impulses the pain body. When the impulse is very negative and painful for that person it plays out in negative, painful events in their life. Now think of this at an energetic level. Trauma and hurt is black and dead energy that feels painful. This hurtful black energy is buried in the energetic layers of our aura or light body and it is recorded in the cells of our body. What I’m trying to express to you at this important time is that in some people the amnesiac barrier between the subconscious and conscious layers is dissolving. People are moving through these amnesiac barriers and this black energy, this hurt and pain, this recorded trauma energy is surfacing from their unconscious mind and body.
And if they’ve not developed the core self-love, self-acceptance and selfesteem it can generate a high pain body experience at this time. Many people’s unconscious content is spilling out into their conscious mind awareness from the dissolving of this amnesiac barrier and it can create a lot of confusion if you do not know what this is or how to actually process it. We can reach and unravel this black trauma energy through different pain release exercises but we also can clear it through the physical body through body work such as somatic experiencing.
If we do not clear out this black energy in our body that is buried in the subconscious layers it will constantly impact our quality of life.
It will negatively filter into the way we think and process reality. It will emotionally trigger us or we will carry this baggage around as emotional trauma and keep playing these negative patterns out in our life and with other people. To change the negative pattern we have to see the negative pattern and not deny it, by addressing the pain or trauma and getting it out of the body by clearing it from the mind and emotions. Sometimes this can be as simple as changing your response to painful triggers. By changing your response and not reacting you are helping yourself to change the negative pattern within you.
What does recorded trauma in the body look like?
Blocking out conscious awareness of pain, hurts or trauma does not mean that the person has no ill effects of that pain or trauma. Using denial, defensive or dissociative skills does not mean that the pain, hurt or trauma did not happen. Denial means that the person is simply refusing to acknowledge the fact that they were hurt, they were feeling pain or they were traumatized and they cannot look honestly at the circumstances.
Many people are taught to pretend that they’re not feeling hurt by something when they were actually hurt very badly.
Even if the memories of pain or trauma are hidden from the person’s conscious or surface awareness that blocked hurt, trauma, unresolved pain creates very noticeable and obvious symptoms that can be easily seen in their everyday lives.
We live in a time on the Earth where what was recorded in our subconscious is surfacing and now we have to face it and if you did not see it before, it can be shocking and painful. You may have to see and witness other people in your life also undergoing the exact same process. So, let’s break down the pain and trauma, how this affects you right now, how it affects people around you. Pain, hurt and trauma are deep energetic wounds that if they are left unresolved and unhealed in a person within the layers of our bodies, they create a pathway for various energy blockages such as attachments that form many energetic tributaries that feed that same wound of internal pain or trauma. In higher vision it can appear something like a black energy octopus in a person’s energy field, which is really their own pain. That could be sensed and formed from a core trauma event with several lines of dark energy moving in the body to be triggered in various ways inside that person. This triggers them obviously emotionally and mentally. When those deep trauma wounds are in the person there are cords connected to them.
Many times they connect to these events where the trauma happened or certain mind control programs that are specific to 3rd dimensional negative ego belief systems. What can happen is that the trauma or painful wound attracts even extradimensional entities that are vibrating at that particular level at where ever that pain or trauma wound is. So, say there is traumatic psycho-spiritual event or someone was a victim of abuse at some point in their life the person underwent some kind of experience where they felt really hurt, abused or traumatized. So if that painful energy is not cleared, moved and forgiven through the body, that person probably splintered off from that timeline and a cord or astral binding is now connecting to that timeline of the event where the pain happened.
Many times I’ve seen someone as a child that has gone through abuse or hurt and their emotional and spiritual development may be stunted and the ageing process actually stops. The emotional development process actually stops at the time that the trauma occurred. And even as their biological body ages their emotional or spiritual body just gets stunted or frozen in time. That person who’s suffered the pain and trauma may actually have the emotional development or an 8 year old or 10 year old, in particular issues where they were triggered because they never healed their inner child from the pain that they suffered from that particular event or timeline. So, it’s important to understand how these timelines work and when you call back these aspects of inner child or self, you’re calling back fragments of yourself that have been soul splintered through these particular timelines especially when there are deep wounds of pain that are left unresolved and unhealed that are still impacting you today.
These unhealed wounds create holes or tears or vulnerability in our energy field that can attract unwanted energies, and as well some negative energies.
Some times they can be beings that have the same unresolved issues that will start to attach to that person because its a familiar energy that’s vibrating with the same pain or trauma for them. There are millions of reasons that negative energies or entities attach to people. Sometimes they’re from agreements but most of these are imbalances that are created from unhealed pain and trauma wounds. We manifest from the Law of Resonance so when our body is resonating at a particular vibration of pain or trauma wound, it may attract the energies that are resonating at the same frequency rate, and this also includes entities and when entities start getting involved and attaching to the human energy field to help emotional and mental triggering (because many times entities are involved in the triggering process) then that person will experience feelings of great density, or heaviness or oppression, things that take away the natural joy that we have when we are spiritually connected and we are infused with heart based feelings and able to connect with our soul. There is a huge connection between these deep pain trauma wounds that remain unhealed and over time these wounds are exaggerated and magnified in their painful effects by 100 or 1000 through entities that attach to those triggers that person may now be carrying. The more emotional charge we have around pain or trauma is really the number 1 issue that leads to spiritually abusive or destructive behaviours such as addiction problems.
So, if there are deep painful wounds not only emotionally but around the pain body this generally leads to some form of addiction in this world, and many people that have incredible cravings or issues with addiction would probably be relieved of the intensity of these cravings by actually just addressing the cords and evicting these particular entities from triggering them. I’ve seen people deeply entrenched in problems of painful wounds or addiction and a huge percentage of their perceived pain isn’t even coming from them as an individual. It’s actually being filtered in from the negative energies that they’re attracting and the negative entities that are manipulating the triggers because if you’re not fully in command of your being, if you’re not taking power over your body then something else will.
So, what are the most common buried pain body symptoms?
The most general trauma symptoms all around us today are (we can do a self assessment and we can also consider our loved ones or people around us that we may be observing having a really difficult time during the planetary Dark Night of the Soul).
– Unresolved hurts or trauma turn into issues that look like addictive behaviours.
When someone is excessively turning to some kind of substance on the external actually it doesn’t have to be a consciousness altering substance, it also could be shopping or an eating disorder or gambling as well as drugs, alcohol and sex, or even addicted to another person, because this become a way to push difficult emotions away or things that are upsetting so that we don’t deal with the content of the pain or the trauma within us. Also it creates an inability to tolerate addressing conflicts with others having fears of conflicts, running from conflicts, avoiding conflict, and maintaining skewed perceptions of conflict.
– An inability to tolerate intense feelings or emotions, maybe preferring to avoid uncomfortable feelings and acting defensive over anything that emotionally challenges them.
– Sometimes an innate belief that they’re worthless, without value or importance.
Of course we know that a part of the negative alien agenda’s mind control for creating slaves on our planet, if we believe humans are worthless we’re much easier to control, if we feel worthless we are easier to control.
– Black and white thinking, all or nothing thinking, even if this approach ends up harming ourselves, this is called splitting and it’s a type of ego defence mechanism. Black and white thinking is like saying you are either with me or not with me. And as we know life and relationships are a lot more complicated than that.
– Inappropriate attachments to authority figures, mother or father figures or with disfunctional or unhealthy people.
– A codependence or over reliance for other people to do things for them.
– Intense anxiety and repeated panic attacks, intrusive thoughts, upsetting images or distressing nightmares.
– Repeatedly acting from a victim role in current day relationships
– Destruction actions that generate self harm self injury or even depression which is harm committed against the inner spirit.
If you are experiencing these symptoms ask yourself if you are truly ready to address your unresolved pain and trauma issues or if you find it more comfortable to continue living with these struggles.
Is it harder to face how the pain actually got there or is it harder to live a life full of anxiety, troubled relationships, extreme fears and physical pain? Running from your pain and trauma history will not help you feel better. Face your pain or trauma by being honest with the trauma behaviours that you know emotionally trigger you. Emotional triggers are enmeshed with some kind of pain, hurt or trauma and the events that are connected to that trauma. Many times if you can get to the trauma event where you actually got hurt, you can clear it in that moment in the unconscious layers by actually seeing what was making you feel that way to begin with. This trauma event may also need forgiveness and love, especially if it’s hard to let go of through acceptance of the situation.
We have to comprehend if we will not let go of the trauma story it will continue to haunt us. It will continue to make us unhappy or miserable. So, remember that when you come to process an emotional trigger, something that hurt you, a painful even that you also must be willing to let it go, and find acceptance so that you can move on with your life into creating healthier patterns.
You will also need to be very honest about yourself whether this unresolved pain and these triggers are partially being self generated through the negative thoughts and behaviours that you’re not letting go of. Thus our ascending body may be processing some very complex energies and emotions now, as the amnesiac barrier dissolves, and we start to remember the emotions or sensations that we have experienced throughout our life, throughout historical timeline events that had negatively impacted us, as well as the collective consciousness, and even those from other parallels in time. Because humanity has not been given the appropriate context for not only healing and processing trauma but also for what has happened in collective consciousness memories through Galactic history, many people do not have correct memory associations to what they’re feeling or when they’re experiencing the emotions or processing the sensations and this may bring an impact to the physical body’s usual functioning.
However when we start to reclaim our memories, when we start to remember what has happened to us, when we recognize the areas inside of us that feel wounded or they’re in pain this supports the reclamation of Soul fragments and the returning of consciousness memories that were being manipulated by the AI version of the 3D timelines because what has been in the amnesiac barrier is how we’ve been manipulated into mind control.
Now, most commonly this is going to happen as subconscious mind contents that were not noticed before, start to be seen by your conscious mind, or they come into surface awareness when it wasn’t there before. Like images, feelings, sensations, bits of scenery. I would suggest that if you have been feeling anxiety and off centre and easily spooked, if your pain body has been amplified lately to please not displace or transfer those feelings to the community at large but to have the courage to look within and find out what it is that’s really upsetting you. Again, this is the time for exercising the neutrality training that you get here in ES so that you can allow these memories to surface. When the subconscious feelings start to surface do not deny them or repress them further as this is only going to increase or prolong suffering.
- Work your tools to feel safe again.
- Find the inner observer.
- Be committed to shift out the pain that you have inside your body that is triggering you.
- It is the only way you will find emotional freedom is through the effort and commitment that you make to become free of this pain.
Peace be with your heart and mind!
(Source: Transcript – Ascension Class August 2017)