STEVE BECKOW – Immersed in an Ocean of Love – 5-18-15

Steve-at-Horseshoe-Bay-200x200A few days before I went through the experience of bliss described in “I Could Get Used to This,” (1) I went through almost a full day immersed in an ocean of love.

It was an experiential and not a realized experience but it was still very pleasant. It was at a lower level of experience than the later one.

Nonetheless, my experience closely fit what Third Zen Patriarch Sosan describes here:

The Great Way is effortless
for those who live in choiceless awareness
To choose without preference
is to be clear.

Even the slightest personal preference
and your whole world becomes divided.
To perceive reality as it is
is to live with an open mind. (2)

What he says is so beautifully apt, but it’s very difficult, before one experiences the state he’s pointing at, to understand what he’s saying and why he says it. But the minute you’re in the space of love – that is, flooded with love because love is no miser – what he’s saying becomes crystal clear.

I’ll do my best to explain.  One can remain in the center, in the balance point, in the heart and still choose. This is what he refers to as “choiceless awareness.” One is simply present, but that doesn’t preclude one’s ability to say “yes” or “no” to something.

But one cannot remain in the center and have preferences. Preferences, by their very nature, take us out of the center and give us a leaning. To stay in the center, we must lean neither to the left nor to the right.

One could argue with life and say “That isn’t fair. I should have the right to my preferences.” And we do. But it still doesn’t matter. We simply cannot experience the deeper states that depend on stillness of the mind  – the windless place, the still water – if we insist on hankering for, being drawn to, and pursuing this or that in the material world.

Preference is an aspect of desire. Because we’ve enjoyed something, we desire to have it again. Preference is desire projected into the future.

Our preference is the leaning towards that thing that we generate to remind us that we want it next time we encounter it. It increases our likelihood of getting it again.

The quieting down of preference came as a feature of a space that I was in from the moment I woke up till about 4 in the afternoon.

I keep saying this next thing over and over again. Yes, I’m repeating myself. It’s because the distinction is so important, so connected to understanding what Sosan is saying.

It’s the space that eliminates preferences. It’s the space that immerses one in bliss. We tend to think that what we do and don’t do is important for enlightenment. No, it’s the space itself that needs to be recognized.  Here I go again repeating Sri Ramakrishna’s apt analogy: Walk into the lake. Run into the lake. Jump into the lake. The important thing is to get ourselves into the lake, the space.

Another word for space would be vibration, frequency. I suppose you could also say dimension and plane of existence.

We need to take our attention off the doer and notice the space.  Gosh, I’m not sure if I put that clearly.

When we notice the space and the importance of it rather than of what we do or don’t do, then we start to allow and surrender to the space. Hallelujah!

And when we find ourselves in bliss, we have no desires and so no preferences or issues or trauma and drama. But then, if, in the space, we generate a preference and attach to it, we’re drawn back into the world of strong choices, which takes us away from our center, which takes us out of the space, out of the bliss, out of the love.

Yes, that’s as clearly as I could possibly put it.

That doesn’t mean I’m suggesting you stop personal development and just sit there regarding the space. No, go on about things as you’ve been doing. I’m simply asking for a change of one idea for another. Just one idea, out of billions.

Change your mind on which of these two is more important to enlightenment: (1) Our personal efforts; i.e., what we do or don’t do, and (2)  Our personal recognition of and surrender to the space.

I say it’s the latter. Maybe that’s why enlightened beings break out into laughter when they realize what it took to become enlightened: simple surrender to and recognition of the space of what we today would call “higher dimensonality.”

I maintain that all of what I’ve just said is what Sosan is pointing to.

I’d like to circle back now and examine the space and more about what it taught me about preferences in a continuation of this article.

(Continued in Part 2.)


Steve with Headset

(Continued from Part 1.)

I’d like to continue looking at the feeling-level experience of love that I was immersed in the other day.

The space of love and bliss that I was then in seemed unshakeable. I noticed that, while in it, I made choices, but had no preferences. I was in what Sosan and Krishnamurti called choiceless awareness.  Just being here with nothing added. Acting without acting. Remaining centered. Doing what worked and whatever I did worked.

I saw then, a little more strongly than I do now – since I’m not in that space any longer – that I’m entirely a form made by love from itself, immersed in a sea of love.

I was not in a transcendental sea of love, more a feeling sea. It was therefore not realized, but experiential, knowledge. But it was still very pleasant.

I saw all traces of “me and mine” and “I want” (ego and desire) disappear. All self-importance and strong desire left.

The fact that I had no preferences was very important.  It isn’t that preferences as preferences are bad. It’s that preference is a form of strong and persistent desire that takes us away from the the center point, the stillpoint, the heart.

Away from the heart is another way of saying away from love. Going away from the heart is what Jesus called distraction: “Come back to what is important. And that is, you are love. It is all you have ever been. Everything else — everything else, every other lifetime — is just a distraction.” (1)

We distract ourselves endlessly from the love that we are and that’s present in our hearts. And then we wonder why we feel so low or down or awful.

Preferences end up being a distraction from love, from our natural state. The only reason there isn’t a hue and cry raised and a global campaign started to restore love to all our lives is that so few of us have experienced transformational love. Hardly any of us know it exists. We know romantic love does but that’s the merest shadow of the other.

I’ve experienced transformational love around two dozen times in spiritual experiences prior to this latest, extended round.  But these earlier years covered mere minutes a year. And then the memory faded away and I was back to normal again.

And this would be after weeks, months and years of intense work in workshops and retreats. The real kicker is that each of these experiences repaid years of spiritual work.

I noticed the other day, as I flirted with my preferences, that I withdrew more and more from the space of love. I could have kept going with it but I probably would have found myself entirely out of the experience of love and back in lower vibrations again.

Preferences are part of the spectrum of desire. After them come strong desires and then attachments and then addictions. Our desire goes under different names the stronger it gets. But it’s still the same longing, yearning, desire.

When we reach the stage of addiction, we’re firmly attached to the lower virations and incapable of clear discrimination. Krishna described the process and its outcome here:

“Thinking about sense-objects
Will attach you to sense-objects;
Grow attached, and you become addicted;
Thwart your addiction, it turns to anger;
Be angry, and you confuse the mind;
Confuse your mind, you forget the lesson of experience;
Forget experience, you lose discrimination;
Lose discrimination, and you miss life’s only purpose.” (2)

The only purpose of physical (vs. spiritual) life is to assist us to build the power of discriminating between the Real and the unreal. Realization of the Real is the purpose of all life, all lives, lives in all dimensions, etc. Our discrimination is most acute when we’re in our heart, our center. Preferences take us away from that center.

Why is that center important? Because it’s still. Why is stillness important? Because the Transcendental is still and, to experience it, our minds must be still.

Cutting the cords of preferences doesn’t mean I don’t choose. I do. But there are no strong forces playing on me as I choose – well, except love. I’m going to modify what Krishna said and argue that love is all that a person can desire without transgressing the law of their nature. (3)

Put another way, love is the only thing we can desire that’s free. Everything else carries a karmic price tag.

I’ve already been using Archangel Michael’s blue sword of truth to cut away all attachments from the external part of my body each morning in meditation.

But preferences feel as if they’re on the inside. I now use Michael’s blue sword on the inside of my body too, to remove all preferences. And, yes, I really find it works.

Basically we have to eliminate every form of tie that keeps us in the lower vibrations  – preferences, strong desires, attachments and addictions. We have to remain in our centers.  Not like I’m so great at this. I’m not. But I’m getting better.

When we cut all preferences, we remain in the heart and exist in our natural, native state – which is love.

Sahaja samadhi, which this was not, is also our “natural state.”  I take it this time spent in bliss was just a nibble, a hint, a gift of the angels.

I remained in the loving state as I went about my errands in Vancouver.  Everything was different. Every interaction worked. If the whole world felt this way and lived it, the world would instantly work.

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